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September 17, 2002
thee day..
i dunno why but after havin read a few of peoples blogs on 9/11 and their thoughts, i feel a bit compelled to write my own. like its my obligation to share how i felt and was particularly affected. well, ill actually try NOT to preach or proclaim wut bastards humans can be and all. maybe ill just write wut i was doin that day. or wut i was doin one yr from that day. or maybe ill just write..
so it was sorta weird bein in ny on the anniversary of 9/11. by the way, i find it funny (not funny-haha, but funny-odd) that a word like 'anniversary' w/ such positive connotations associated w/ it is used to mark ones weddin day as well as a loved ones death--or in this case, several thousands'. anyways.....bein in ny last wk didnt make me feel any more emotional or sad--or even remind me of that feelin--as i was a yr ago. in fact, my only consistent thought throughout the day was: wow, its already been a yr? cuz it sure doesnt seem like it..
i mean i cant say 'weve moved on' cuz im not one who was directly affected. if i was, i probly would never have moved on. but to me, nothin feels different yet life has gone on. and it just seems odd: we mourn, we re sad, policies are discussed, laws are passed, troops moved out, and yet wut has changed. oh, besides the economy skydivin w/o a chute..
okay, ive had enough of wut ive written cuz i feel like this entry has devolved into wut i exactly did not want to write about. im gonna wrap w/ two things:
1) bein in nyc again did remind me of one thing: my visit to ground zero two wks after 9/11 (i was in nyc for work). yeah, that was terrible. the smoke and dust, the rubble, the smell. maybe the worst was the subway stop at times square: pictures, candles, and people just cryin. man, survivors are both those who made it thru and those whose loved ones died..
2) a singer-songwriter im fond of said it best, in my opinion: 'remember the day as we carry on'..
am i just contributin to 9/11 overkill?
Posted by cpaik at September 17, 2002 10:42 PM
Comments
bro, good honest entry.
Posted by: dan at September 18, 2002 09:51 AM
Did you consider that you being there on 9/11 was not a coincidence, but something you subconciously wanted to do? Maybe a part of you wanted to see the city recovered, so maybe a part of you could recover. I can't imagine what ground zero was like. It must have been gut-wrenching.
I don't think this entry was overkill. There is a lot of grief out there. This was your catharsis. Hope you feel better now.
Posted by: harry at September 18, 2002 10:25 AM