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October 11, 2002
am i just crazy?
so its kinda weird..
the nba season is about three wks away, so that means all the fantasy games are rearin up to go. and for the first time since i got into this, i havent been peein in my pants in anticipation..
dont get me wrong--ive already begun two serious leagues and today joined a couple others. but i have done nowhere near the due diligence i should in preparation for a draft tomorr morn! its weird..
i feel a lot of it has to do w/ my excitement for football this season--im just goin crazy over the nfl. its like im tastin ice cream for the very first time! whyd it take me so long to realize how great the game is on top of how well the league has been managed? not a half-day goes by when i dont read up on somethin havin to do w/ a team or player. i constantly scour espn and sportingnews for fantasy updates (actually, i dont since i know which days and times their columnists publish their stuff)..
so am i on the edge of that cliff ready to jump the chasm between basketball and football? am i gonna start wakin up early to go thru football drills (as oppose to wakin up early to play madden)? i already spend my entire sundays in front of the tv and computer, watchin the games and keepin track of the stats..
the bigger and more central question here doesnt rest on somethin as superficial or fleetin as sports. but more on my crazy fanaticism--seriously, i think im crazy..
just before i went off to college, i was told by someone that i was a 'fanatic'. never before had the thought occurred to me to be labelled as such. but as i thought back on my life then and as i think back now, it is nothin but the truth..
my first memory of followin somethin so obsessively was superman. contrary to wut the picture on the right shows, i was clark kent always rippin my shirt open to reveal a big S (actually, my skinny little body). i ran around ('flew') constantly as the man of steel, leapin off couches, and hummin that unmistakable theme. in the car, id stick my fists out the window zoomin down the highway. my grandmother even made a cape for me w/ the signature yellow insignia on the back (man, that cape was awesome)!
anyways, from there memory tells me i moved on to james bond. then macgyver. then back to the future, john williams, steven spielberg, animaniacs, x-men, steven curtis chapman, michael jordan. hmm, is that it? im sure there were more minor obsessions but those are the big ones. each lasts somewhere between one to three years and even afterwards, doesnt fade so much as is lessened in severity by the onset of another..
so am i crazy? it almost sounds like im a kid who is given a new toy, plays w/ it to death until hes given a new one. and the cycle repeats itself. is this any way to live? maybe its the only way for me to live--to be stimulated so much by somethin that i nearly try to emulate it. in a way, its my goal...my hope..
in the meantime, i should really try to make my next job the object of my fanaticism cuz i sure i need one..
Posted by cpaik at October 11, 2002 11:59 PM
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dude, nothing's wrong w/ you. there's a season for everything. (ecclesiates 3) time for hoops, time for football, time for world cup... plus, once the nba season starts, you'll get sucked in
Posted by: mungmungdog at October 14, 2002 10:30 AM