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February 20, 2003
proceed w/ caution: senseless, meanderin thoughts ahead..
snow is nice and all but when its a good four days after the storm has passed and people are still walkin on the sides of the roads cuz theres no sidewalk and two-lane highways are still one-laners, its too much. i cant stand the fact its been takin me over an hr to get to work when it normally takes me 20 mins. cant they just pull out some big ray gun and melt all the damn snow??
- yay, duke won last nite. stoopid terps. im not sure how many non-dukies can understand the hatred we have towards maryland. i honestly feel that it is stronger than it ever was towards unc. i mean, there are no other two games in the season i want us to win than the ones against maryland. i think the only thing that would be better than beatin em on the court is if they were dead. seriously..
- so on my snowday off on mon, i watched a.i. i had heard it was a pretty bad film which is why i put off watchin it for so long although it was spielberg. so when i finished watchin it, i was surprised that i liked it--i really liked it. i guess i shouldnt have been since a lotta times things seem to turn out that way--how negative hype actually helps a film (while overhype dooms one)..
but i really enjoyed the film and i really enjoy thinkin about it afterwards. the movie was supposedly the brainchild of stanley kubrick and although i really liked 2001, i wouldnt call myself a kubrick fan cuz those are his only two films ive seen. but i think the kubrick-spielberg collaboration worked out really well in this film cuz the apparent clashin of cynicism and optimism turned into a very poignant vision of the future..
the story--centerin on a robot boy and the human ability to love--was great, but i personally thought the endin is wut made it clutch for me. i wont ruin it here for those who havent seen it. but lets just say it made me very pensive after it ended..
- gawddangit, nba street 2 was to initially be release in march. now, it wont be out til the middle of may!! cmon..
- one thing i particularly enjoy about work now is that i get to listen to my soundtracks from beginnin to end. i have a ton of cds at home which i hardly listen to cuz i cant just enjoy the full scores w/o listenin to em in their entirety. at work, however, since im programmin on my own the whole day, i just pop in one cd after another. i mainly stick w/ soundtracks cuz songs (the lyrics) tend to distract me from my work. man, john williams is a frickin genius..
- i realize that no one who read the above entry actually cares..
- in his last entry, ji brought up the fact that his parents have been buggin him to go back to school. its funny (or maybe not) that my parents have been urgin me to do the same--for the past eight months. and it is annoyin da hell outta me..
i understand their intentions and i see that the 'urgin' likely stems from their background and the fact that theyre korean. but still--wut is it w/ a parents' need to direct? or instruct? or frickin nag?? i keep tellin em every time they ask, 'dont worry! ill figure it out on my own!!' meanin, ill figure out WUT i wanna do WHEN i wanna do it..
yeah, okay so maybe theyre worried cuz i may not necessarily know which direction i want my life to go in. but let me figure it out w/o all the damn pressure..
- obviously, jis entry hit a nerve..
- so im rantin right now--readin jis entry brought it all on. but i will say, i do wanna go back to school--surprisingly. i wanna be back in an academic environment to learn and to learn well. i only need to find my impetus..
- and this all brings me to a final pt: do you know which direction youre goin? do you have an idea where your life is takin you? and do you feel you have control over that direction? or do you feel like its out of your control? that your life is like a river and youre just goin along for the ride--who knows where youll end up..
i feel like that a lot of times. cuz i dont really know wut i wanna do or where i want my life--and esthers life--to be in 10, 20 yrs..
but sometimes when i think about that uncertainty, i also think 'who cares?'. it often seems society teaches us that good, strong people have a goal in their life and so you should have one too. but is it necessarily bad or pathetic if one doesnt? cuz havin a goal just to have a goal may do more harm than not havin one but enjoyin the adventure of that uncertainty..
life is unpredictable and it isnt fair--and thats wut makes it real. i luv it..
Posted by chars at February 20, 2003 06:03 PM
Comments
DANG... cant believe NBA street2 is coming out so late...i havent been excited a game comin out, well since madden 03... :)
...i agree with ya about learning... I love just sitting in the classroom and soakin in a great lecture... being school is great, but I do miss the cash flow.... BTW, do you get discounts for taking classes at hopkins? In honor of ji's site where he solicits opinions on his career path, I think you should get a masters in cs... so EA Sports or midway sports will hire you... sweeet...
Posted by: Alberto at February 21, 2003 10:11 AM
you're not only on the ranting boat...my parents too have been hinting at some higher education. as soon as i hint or tell them my initial thoughts, they take that has truth and hang on to it for dear life. that's why i don't tell them anything...that's the way to go..=)
Posted by: phil at February 21, 2003 04:07 PM
i def felt ya on that parents thing
Posted by: joe at February 21, 2003 06:00 PM
i wanna go back to school too - the schools just won't accept me!!
as for the parent's nagging, for me, i think the reason they (mom and other family) nag is because of what they gave up to come here. what gets on my nerves is how they think they're in a better position to tell you what to do...
as for maryland, we're not rivals!! i repeat we're not rivals!! funny how they hate us even though they won the national championship last year. i actually like their team, but their fans get on my nerves.
why didn't you put a shout out to dahntay for that freak-nasty dunk last week against uva!!
Posted by: warren at February 22, 2003 11:14 AM