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July 28, 2003
un-known..
i have a problem w/ honesty..
im not an outright liar (not all the time anyways)--i dont tell people falsities. my problem lies w/ disclosure. i try to limit the amount of information i tell someone about myself..
i have a friend who immediately dislikes people he meets. in his view, a person must prove his "worthiness"--of time and relationship. im not that extreme, but i do have an inherent distrust in people. only once i get to know em does my guard let down slightly..
i think it lies w/ my cynical view of human nature. although i would ideally like to view it as bein foundationally good i cannot fully embrace that notion cuz i hafta give myself the benefit of the doubt..
and that is why i will never be happy w/ my blog cuz i can never be completely honest in my words--laid bare in the open..
saw an interestin film called the rules of attraction the other day and it asked, how can you actually know someone? for all the connections we make, why is it so imperative that we make ourselves known? why do i have a blog where i share only some of my thoughts and let limited information about me just lie out there on the net?
who knows, i certainly dont..
Posted by chars at July 28, 2003 11:59 PM