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July 08, 2003
wut is an idiot to do?
im pretty pissed off right now--and its not even 9am yet..
- woke up this mornin and checked my simulation fantasy league (football) as i always do, only to see i lost yet another game by givin up a double-digit pt lead in the fourth quarter. its now my third such consecutive game and i feel like the damn computer is cheatin like hell to allow my opponents to come back. life is so unfair..
- im late to work, not that anyone really cares. but i dont like comin in 20 mins after my designated time. and the thing is, i woke up earlier than i usually do. the bad thing about bein a mornin person is i try to do too much in the mornin..
- yester, i mowed the lawn. in the process, i broke our nice, fairly new lawn mower freely given to us by our super-friendly neighbor (who works for black and decker). AAAAGGGGHHHH!!
everythin started out fine until i came across a little water pipe stickin out of the ground. i usually go around but since i had little patience on this hot and nasty day, i decided to just lift the mower over it and set it down once i past it--apparently, im not good at estimatin distances..
KER-CHUNK!! suddenly, the normal high-pitched whir became a low, pathetic rumble. d a m n . .
but since it was still goin, i decided to keep mowin. and all was fine--for about 10 seconds. then it just died. it was as if the mower was no longer receivin any power (but all was still plugged in) cuz not even the motor would come to life when i pulled on the switch..
so in the end i parked the newly deceased on the sidewalk, borrowed a different neighbors mower, and finished the job. all the while, i repeatedly told myself wut a moron i was and had anyone else faced that water pipe he most certainly would have gone AROUND it..
the thing that pains me the most is that i cant really blame myself. i mean, how can i blame myself for bein stoopid? its like blamin yourself for bein ugly or havin hairy toes--theres nothin you could have done about it. sure, you can minimize the effects by readin books--or trimmin the hair. but ultimately, you are who you are and you had no control over wut your genes pre-determined..
and so all i can do is be infuriated w/ myself for bein an idiot. interestingly, im surprised im not pissed off everyday..
Posted by chars at July 8, 2003 08:56 AM