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December 15, 2003
i hate me..
well, my flight through football fantasy-land has pretty much come to an end..
yester was a very dark day. it was by far my worst fantasy football day of the year--and it had to come in the first week of the playoffs for most of my leagues. of the four playoff games i was in this week, i only emerged from one. gawddammit..
seriously though, it may sound stoopid to most who read this entry but i was pretty depressed yester evenin. and its not so much that i just lost--its more of wut those losses reflected: that i suck. all i had worked for, every article i read, every player i researched and followed, every minute thought spent was for not. like i tried and i failed, so i suck..
yeah, lets do the michael jordan and think how its not many times you fail, but how many times you get up afterwards that counts--wutever. me, i just wanna sleep for a week. i have no will to play. i dont even wanna try in the remainin two leagues i have a chance in..
at least, esther took me to one of her holiday parties w/ an open bar. although gettin liquored up in an already dejected state only heightens the suicidal feelin..
anyways, i gotta start this stoopid week..
Posted by chars at December 15, 2003 09:00 AM