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December 09, 2003
one very meanderin stream..
esthers been tellin me i should get a haircut. i only just realized i havent had one since oct....and as much as i would like to let my hair grow out (less maintenance), i have a hard enough time lookin good much less w/ long hair....ive realized my negativity often defeats me. im too cynical for my own good....the nfls regular season is over in three weeks. which mean fantasy football effectively ends in three weeks. guess its all bball till april....christmas is wut, two weeks away. and it doesnt even feel like it. even w/ the snow. im forcin myself to listen to a christmas mix i made for the drive home to get into the jolly ole mood....i think ill always enjoy mario kart. even when im 70 and they come out w/ mario kart 2048....gettin a new hard drive has given me a feelin of peace and stability.... watchin the girl not pick the average joe last nite deflates the belief in the common man....i have a problem: im a mountain-dew-olic. i wonder if one day ill be too ashamed to tell that to my kids. provided ill be able to have any....squandered opportunity incites me to anger very quickly. in any situation, but esp driving--im so stoopid....more than anywhere ive lived or been to, i often miss a particular place in time. i usually revel in the past or ponder about the future. i wonder why im never content in the present....im very good at puttin things off. readin, errands, bills, everythin--probly, livin too. haha....i find it fascinatin--and fortunate--how esther may not like the things i enjoy, yet still likes me nonetheless....was watchin this special on the iron man competition in hawaii. that thing is just insane. but if you can swim 2.5 miles, the hop on a bike for 112 miles, and finish off runnin a marathon (26 miles), is there anythin in this world you wouldnt be able to do?? seriously, if you finish that crazy race you could go on and accomplish wutever else you wanted..
Posted by chars at December 9, 2003 05:20 PM