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January 08, 2004

wut the blog is this?!

esther and i were talkin about this blog site of mine (which NEVER happens cuz she hates wut i write) the other day and said my entries are always so negative and pessimistic..

and for some reason, that made me happy..

i dunno why but i am a pretty negative person. i only started noticin this in the past yr. my bro-in-law asks for my opinion, to which he replies, "man, why are you so pessimistic?" esther then chimes in, "thats my charles!"

the other day, i was writin a response to some friends email concernin some matter and realized it was almost entirely dissident and unaffirmative. i then had to add in some niceties to temper my reply..

i wonder why my initial mindset--when it comes to nearly everything--is one of pessimism. why is it when i meet new people, my first instinct is to dislike em and distrust their motives? why is it when im told a certain movie is good, that i quietly think "it sucked" as i walk out of the theatre? why do i try to find the fault in everything?

i dunno--i guess the cynicism runs deep and everythin in this world is contrived. is there anythin wrong w/ seein the glass as half-empty?

Posted by chars at January 8, 2004 01:53 PM