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May 03, 2004
monday morning $%#&*@%&$#!!!!
i had a pretty crap morning of a morning..
forget the fact i spent four hrs dewormin my stoopid computer (yes, i work in frickin IT). on my way to work, i almost got into another accident thanks to a lady driver (no, im not stigmatizin) who--before hurriedly switchin lanes--refused to check her blind spot, which i, umm lets see--HAPPENED TO BE IN..
so next thing i know, im slammin on the brakes and blarin my horn--which is sayin a lot for the passive-aggressive me--as my car came w/in a couple inches of hittin her damn car. as the adrenaline leveled, she sheepishly drove ahead and switched back into her rightful lane as i passed (i wanna say "pissed on") her, cursin like a sailor over the radio..
i hate drivin in the city--i DESPISE it. esp in baltimore which so far has shown me nothin but to be full of inconsiderate and unaware drivers. "inconsiderate" i can actually deal w/ cuz i dont feel bad utterin sweet niceties at em in a foreign language cuz i can write em off as bein a bad person. but "unaware", there is no hope--how can i deal w/ someone who simply doesnt know better?? anger and resentment become fueled by bewilderment over their cluelessness..
after pullin into my garage fumin over the near-collision, i wondered if it would be worth hirin a chauffeur to take me to work in the mornings..
- esther hates the way i drive, which actually has nothin to do w/ the way i drive but rather w/ how i respond to the drivin of others. someone changes into my lane w/o a turn signal and/or a wave of the grateful hand, i respond w/ a mental finger. someone honks at me for changin into his lane a full five secs before he wouldve gotten there, i mouth obscenities and stab an imaginary voodoo doll..
ill admit, im pretty aggressive behind the wheel (have i mentioned i prophesy i will die in a fiery, yet spectacular car crash?). i drive faster than steadier and usually weave in and out when its convenient. but nothin pisses me off more than the discourteous and self-righteous driver. okay, so im a hypocrite cuz i am in fact showin myself to be self-righteous. but at least, i frickin know to check my blindspot before switchin lanes..
i h-a-t-e bad drivers..
- as far as the weekend, esther and i enjoyed love actually and big fish. i have yet to see a british romantic comedy that i have not fancied and will always cherish tim burtons concoctions of fantastic sentimentality..
i particularly latched onto the ending of big fish--while a little sappy, i thought it ended beautifully. that would be nice--to die w/ everyone you knew and touched celebratin your life..
- when i was little(r), my life used to be run by movies. as soon as the latest flick came out, it had to be watched--not the day after, but the day of. or the nite before at the so-called sneak preview..
call it progress but nowadays, i actually wait til the dvd is out. or more correctly, i forget about it til i see on the shelves of blockbuster. and even then, its not an urgent mission. in fact, its almost like a nuisance that needs to be taken care of--a light bulb to be changed or a cute needin to be bandaged. somethin i just hafta "get over with" (esther luvs hearin that phrase). i cant really explain why. i wouldnt say its that my interest in films has waned--maybe just my priorities have changed..
in fact, i would now say tv ru(i)ns my life. esp that forsaken tnt channel which for the nba games alone would destroy me, but to syndicate law & order wipes out any semblance of life i should possibly have..
- one thing im tryin to solidify in my blogwritin is the consistency w/ which i leave off the g when i use a word normally endin in -ing. i hate how i sporadically leave it off some words while keepin it on others. and recently, i recognized i would prefer leavin it off only when usin a word as a noun or as part of a verb participle. i will try and keep it when usin an adjective..
why? who knows--in fact, i dont even understand why i like takin out the g in the first place..
oh wait, i do know--i think its cuz i sometimes feel its easier to read or say wut im thinkin if i dont hafta read or say that g in my mind. like the sentence "sounds" smoother when i hear it in my head..
yeah, like that makes any sense--rubbish..
- so wuts worse? a rainy humid day or a sunny humid day?
i hate rain cuz i hate havin to deal w/ the messiness of bein wet. so if its humid and rainy, then one would think id hate it more, right? well, at least when its rainin, im already dealin w/ the moisture. but if its sunny and the humidity is intoxicatin, then that just ruins wutever joy i could derive out of it--kinda like a missed opportunity..
- i dunno where da hell that thought came from but i think im still steamin over that driver this mornin..
man, this is a pretty incensed entry. i wonder if most people think of me as a quiet-natured and light-hearted guy, which i think i am for the most part. except when im drivin. then i basically become the hulk on wheels..
yeah, im a terrible person..
Posted by chars at May 3, 2004 06:16 PM