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September 02, 2004
but dogs are supposed to be friendly..
i asked esther this question the other day: "am i an unfriendly person?"
she replied w/ an instant "yes"..
i dunno wut it is, but i dont really like sayin hi to strangers when passin em in the hallway or waitin for the elevator. it annoys me even when i hafta smile at someone, playin nice w/ courtesy and all. i actually try to keep a stoic if not frownin face when walkin in public--why smile if i dont hafta?
but wut kills me most is when complete strangers try and make conversation. "its hot today, isnt it?" "uh yeah, so dont make my body process more calories and produce heat by talkin to you." yeah, if only i could say that (why do i hafta be so passive-aggressive?)--wait, does that qualify as bein friendly by NOT retaliatin?
"gawd, just stop--why are you tryin to talk w/ me? i dont know you.."
i guess that deems me unapproachable and inside, my introverted nature smiles..
- this is gonna sound stoopid cuz it is..
ive been tellin people i have this HUGE dilemna of catastraphic proportions. dont laugh, but next thurs is the premiere of the new apprentice. i luved the first one--enjoyed it so much it made see nearly all the other reality shows as flaky..
(by the way, you think the apprentice wouldve been as good or popular w/o omarosa? i have this theory that people galvanize more around things they hate then things they luv. anyways..)
so obviously, ive been waitin for trump to return. but lo and behold, wut else is returnin on thurs?
F...O...O...T...B...A...L...L
damnit--ive only been waitin since the superbowl for the season to begin. and now that its arrived, i hafta choose between sweatin 300-lb men and a billionaire w/ bad hair?
its actually no contest--football all the way..
i just hafta remeber how to program the vcr..
- if you ever get depressed, this is the page to look at. i still marvel at his numbers from his first MVP yr in 88. scoring champ AND defensive player of the yr?? unbelievable..
- so the past couple yrs ive been tryin to figure out wut to do w/ my life (not as bad as cocoa, who i find every now and then tryin to contemplate the meaning of his existence--im not kiddin), more from a career need-to-bring-home-some-bacon basis. and when i think about it, there are a few things that get me goin:
football/basketball: esther encourages me to look for a sports job--yeah, i may follow some sports to a fanatical (or should i say fantastical) degree, but that doesnt mean i know a damn thing about em..
film music: its been 15 yrs now since i first fell in luv w/ john williams (or as us aficionados like to call him, "jdub"). writin for films would be coo, but i have no creativity in me; no capacity wutsoever to imaginatively hear music. ive been tryin for 15 yrs..
economics: isnt it just a cruel tease to be fascinated by concepts i cant understand and gaze at numbers & formulas w/ a blank stare? im just too dumb for this..
web applications: this is basically all i do right now. and boy do i suck at it..
so thats my objective look at my "options". maybe i should just loaf around the house, gnaw on some bones, and sniff til my nose runs dry ever hopeful in the eternal quest for food..
ruff ruff!!
but all that soul-searchin crap is useless anyways (since its hopeless) cuz there are more important things in life..
..like gettin ready for some FOOTBALL!!
Posted by chars at September 2, 2004 08:24 AM