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January 27, 2005

January 26, 2005

cleaveland..

in a way, i cant wait to move to cleveland-rocks..

to get out of here. away from an area i know, full of places all comfy and homely..

and to be elsewhere. somewhere ive never been to or in, a place where i wont know a single soul..

itll almost be like movin to another country--i probly wont recognize a single grocery store. i doubt therell be any korean food. and i heard its hideously cold there..

so it is a bit scary lookin ahead to that time and place. but i am lookin forward to it..

..cuz, for wutever reason, im always lookin to abandon the present (maybe cuz i find it despicable) of wut i am not and who i wish i could be. and move on to a greener (or icier) pasture. to start fresh/anew/from scratch..

..only to start all over again..

Posted by cpaik at 12:01 PM

January 25, 2005

a couple interestin links..

- resurrect your childhood.. (haha--even that ole contra code works!!)

- ah-ha!! so there is a reason why i am so fugly..

Posted by cpaik at 05:01 PM

January 08, 2005

nfl matchup..

man, is there a better football show than espns nfl matchup?

seein plays broken down à la madden makes me feel like im almost bein treated to a scouts breakdown of team film. gawd, if i only had the time and resources (and aptitude) to watch every game like that..

haha, yeah--im sure esther would be thrilled about that. as if i dont waste enough time watchin the nfl..

incidentally, my calls for wildcard weekend:

st louis over seattle - the rams have the hawks number and even at home, seattles secondary has no chance against st louis wideouts..

san diego over new york - the bolts 3-4 will stuff cmart and clamp down on the chad..

indy over denver - cmon, do the broncos really have a chance against the peytons?

green bay over minny - will favres untimely interceptions keep the vikes in the game?

seriously, how awesome is football..

Posted by cpaik at 01:06 AM

January 07, 2005

missed opportunities..

esther and i were recently talkin about something i called "missed opportunities"..

when i drive aggressively (which is about 90% of the time), i see the road and traffic in terms of gaps--if i can squeeze my way into the next lane to speed around the grandmother in front of me, then ill be better off cuz later on i could be one spot closer to a traffic light and possibly leadin to a good two mins of travel time shaved off..

but if i cant squeeze myself into that next lane and end up stuck behind the grandmother, then curse myself red and see that as a missed opportunity--something i either did not or could not take advantage of. and there is almost nothing that pisses me off more..

yeah, its kinda stoopid to get so worked up over something so mundane. but it really is an example of how i perceive things in life--as a series of opportunities to either take advantage of or to whiff on..

bein the glass-is-all-empty-kinda person that i am, i often look back and see my life as a series of these missed opportunities. and im not sure wut makes me feel worse--that im not where i could be cuz i didnt take advantage of an event or that i actually made the decision to act incorrectly or not at all..

playin fantasy sports over the past few years has been a blast for the most part. but i believe the real core of it comes down to sound decision-making. and my terrible performances time and again has only reinforced my acceptance that i outrightedly suck just at that: making decisions..

yeah, no one always choose the wrong way to go. cuz sometimes i do get it right and get to work in 17 mins. or win a fantasy championship. or even marry the perfect ~~girl~~--er, woman..

(uuhh, did i really just write that? blech!!)

but over time, i would say im pretty bad at it..

maybe i should take a course on sound decision-making? haha..

Posted by cpaik at 11:59 PM

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