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January 07, 2005
missed opportunities..
esther and i were recently talkin about something i called "missed opportunities"..
when i drive aggressively (which is about 90% of the time), i see the road and traffic in terms of gaps--if i can squeeze my way into the next lane to speed around the grandmother in front of me, then ill be better off cuz later on i could be one spot closer to a traffic light and possibly leadin to a good two mins of travel time shaved off..
but if i cant squeeze myself into that next lane and end up stuck behind the grandmother, then curse myself red and see that as a missed opportunity--something i either did not or could not take advantage of. and there is almost nothing that pisses me off more..
yeah, its kinda stoopid to get so worked up over something so mundane. but it really is an example of how i perceive things in life--as a series of opportunities to either take advantage of or to whiff on..
bein the glass-is-all-empty-kinda person that i am, i often look back and see my life as a series of these missed opportunities. and im not sure wut makes me feel worse--that im not where i could be cuz i didnt take advantage of an event or that i actually made the decision to act incorrectly or not at all..
playin fantasy sports over the past few years has been a blast for the most part. but i believe the real core of it comes down to sound decision-making. and my terrible performances time and again has only reinforced my acceptance that i outrightedly suck just at that: making decisions..
yeah, no one always choose the wrong way to go. cuz sometimes i do get it right and get to work in 17 mins. or win a fantasy championship. or even marry the perfect girl--er, woman..
(uuhh, did i really just write that? blech!!)
but over time, i would say im pretty bad at it..
maybe i should take a course on sound decision-making? haha..
Posted by chars at January 7, 2005 11:59 PM