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August 10, 2005
how much is gained?
esthers right--this digital cable thing is gonna be the end of me..
so i just finished watchin the second half of thirteen (wow, wut an engrossing film) and the first half of 21 grams, with which every viewing im beginning to luv more and more..
these depressing, realistically-dirty flicks were made for me. strip out the glamour and bring on the grime. earthy, raw, and yeah--make me feel the stresses and aches i dont in my real world..
it is interesting that some dude in the 1900s would go so far as to try and quantify the soul into a physical weight. i wonder wut drove him. and if he was right, so wut? the soul weighs 21 grams. good for him. now how does that change my existence?
so we lose 21 grams when we die, how much is gained when we live?
Posted by chars at 11:58 PM | Comments (2)
August 09, 2005
arrivée..
welcome to ohio..
so weve been here over a month now and ive finally decided to put thoughts into words. or in this case, feelings. instead of describin the actual going-ons of this past month, ill outline how ive felt about the going-ons of this past month..
- packing is hell. granted, it was never fun. packin for camp, packin for college. packin a dorm room. packin an apt. it all sucked. but packin a frickin HOUSE?! as esther so observantly noticed, how can two korean hobbits living in a townhouse fill up every nook-and-cranny of a four-bedroom house??
- unpacking sucks too, but more like the my-crotch-is-uncomfortable-thanks-to-this-2000%-humidity sucks than the i-wanna-rip-my-eyeballs-out sucks cuz at least the displeasure and aggravation can be spread out over a period of time (in our case, a month and counting). esther still comes home and gets frustrated that i havent really done any unpacking (hey, pigs enjoy living in stys)..
- livin in a new house is very nice. like the smell of a new car, the smell of a virgin home should be packaged and marketed..
- livin in a single-family house is great. now, we can yell and scream at each other w/o fear of wakin the neighbors..
- workin at the cleveland clinic is absolute heaven for esther (i think). she luvs the people (fellow alpha humans), the program (of course), and cant imagine bein anywhere else. although she did say she misses the cerebral thinking of hopkins..
- workin from home is cush. wake up, walk the hounds, think about takin a shower (jk...maybe), dress for success (shorts and NO SOCKS), and navigate thru the traffic of our dogs to get to the office on time. actually, at the same time that is the best perk and the worst loss. i havent filled my gas tank since july 4th but i think im becomin less aggressive as a person (much less a driver)..
- and finally, livin in ohio is.........different. we dont really live in cleveland (45 min drive for dr wife every morning), so i cant say wut thats really like. in fact, we live in true suburbia. neighborhood full of families and kids, an elementary school not even one block down the street, and a shopping plaza w/ your obligatory target, home depot, and grocery store three minutes away (not even enough to listen to one song)..
its a bit of an adjustment, for me at least. spendin so much time at home doesnt bother me as much as spendin so much time in front of my computer all day for work and a good portion of the nite for extra-credit. thats probly why i havent felt like blogging; its either work or fantasy football/poker..
esther worries that im not gettin enough social interaction. i think my mom does too (are we sure those two are not one and the same? hey, who is "we" anyways? my other schizoid personality?). bah humbug, introverted only children dont need no stinkin people..
the first nite we got here, we went to the grocery store to stock up on some necessities. i find grocery stores in areas foreign to me interesting because while the items and brands in the stores across the country remain the same, each feel different for some stupid reason. and waitin for checkout that nite, i got that feeling where i wasnt quite comfortable because all this was new and uncertain to me yet was excited because it was new and different. i think thats part of wut drives me (charles is driven?); to continually seek and find something new and different..
we will see wut ohio holds in store for the coming 48 months. lebron, an entertainment center, feet upon feet of snow, tormented discussions about kids, findin a korean grocery store..
"tomorrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther." yes, hope does spring eternal--at least it does in the beginning..
Posted by chars at 10:16 PM | Comments (0)